Eh, fairly good past few days

For some reason, today I've been in a fairly happy mood. Nothing really different than any other day but just having a happy kinda of days.

Been trying to think of something profound to say but nothing really is coming to mind. Trying to think of what to do with my life after college and nothing really is coming to mind. I would love to go full-time at work but I have no idea if that's ever going to happen. Nothing really has come to mind of what I can do. Any major that you have in college is having their own problems in the ecomony. When I was a nursing major, they said that there will be a nursing shortage 10 years after we graduate. I know there are nursing majors that don't even have a nursing job because no one is hiring people right out of college. Psychology majors cannot really do anything unless they have a masters or higher degree. So what is there for any of us to do?
.....who knows?

An oh $h!t day

Back in May, I started having issues with the part of my body that you see a GYN for. Got surgery to remove polyps for down there and they found pre-cancerous cells. I saw a GYN cancer doctor yesterday and found out that, it's semi-serious stuff. Because I'm overweight, I have an excess amount of esterogen in my body. To balance everything out, I need to start taking pregestrone and lose weight. If it goes untreated then it would turn into cancer. Doctor said that there is an 85% chance of turn this around.

If cancer isn't a good reason to lose weight, then I don't know what is.

Today was just a day that I think that everything started to sink in. Growing up in a generation where you believe that things can hurt you and then finding out that you may end up with cancer, wow....heh....don't know what else to say. It just felt that: come on, I'm 22....people our age don't get cancer.

I know what I have to do to get the weight off. My biggest enemy in this is myself. To know what I have to eat compared to what I want to eat. That's going to be the hardest thing for me. I'm 270 pounds and I would love just to weigh 200. It's going to be hard. But for my health's sake, I need to lose this weight.....